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This post deals with feelings of loneliness and depression and may be triggering for some readers.
Hi there, how are you doing today? My mood has been low lately, what about you? I hope not, but if you’re struggling, make sure to take care of yourself. You’re worth the effort ❤
Loneliness is one of the major triggers I struggle with.
It’s a symptom of my brain chemistry.
When my mood takes a dip, I think no one wants to be around me.
Why would they, when I’m like this?
No one really likes me anyway.
If people wanted to be around me, they would reach out.
These ugly thoughts tumble around my head and get stuck on repeat.
You’ve never felt the depths of loneliness until you’ve been surrounded by people, all talking around you and laughing, but not one person makes an effort to connect with you.
Maybe it’s me.
Maybe there’s something fundamentally wrong with me.
Maybe if I just lighten up… be more positive…
Maybe if I was neurotypical…
Ugly thoughts, I know. But that’s what runs through my head.
I’m going to let you in on a little secret.
Call me jaded.
Call me negative.
But the world is full of selfish people.
When was the last time someone asked you how you were doing, and after you gave the socially acceptable “Fine, how are you?” They took you by the hand and said, “No really, how are you doing?”
When was the last time you felt deeply cared for?
I don’t mean to be so negative. I’d love to be adorable and positive, but that’s not really how the world works. Not my world, anyway.
Here I am.
My world gets dark, and sometimes I’m not sure why.
The reality is that not a lot of people in this world are going to take the time to get to know the real you. To go the extra mile to make sure you feel cared for.
They exist, but it’s rare to find them.
If you do find them, hang on to them. That’s a special person, indeed.
But I can tell you one thing.
I care how you feel, even if no one else does.
If you were sitting next to me, I wouldn’t let you get away with “Fine, how are you?”
I know what the darkness feels like. We’ve been familiar for a long time now.
So when I can’t seem to escape the darkness, I will do anything in my power to bring light to your world.
I think sometimes the people in this world who feel the most pain are the ones who try the hardest to take it away from others.
And sometimes, when I’m in pain, giving love makes me feel a bit lighter, even if my problems don’t really go away.
People around me see me as bright and bubbly. Laughing and smiling.
But that’s not always how I feel.
I just don’t want the darkness to spread.
I’m responsible for the way I act, no matter how I’m feeling.
Just because I’m having a bad mental health day, doesn’t mean I have to bring you down with me.
Why? Because I don’t want to be the person who hurts others. And because you’re important to me.
I see value in every person I meet.
Maybe because it’s so rare that people see the value in me.
You are deeply cared for.
You are important.
You are valued.
You are special.
And if the darkness is hanging over you today, I hope you find it a bit easier to bear in the knowledge that you are not alone it this.
I’m here too.
And as souls brought up in darkness, I think it’s our moral obligation to seek the light.
To bring healing and love and laughter to the people who mean something to us… in the hopes that whatever darkness lingering over their head might be vanquished.
And maybe, while you’re being a warrior for love and light, you might find some healing for yourself in the light you bring to others.
Maybe making someone feel valued and loved is exactly what you needed.
Maybe someone will see how special you are while you’re telling them how special they are to you.
At the end of the day, no matter how you’re feeling, you are responsible for your own actions.
You get to decide how you want to treat people, what words come out of your mouth.
So who do you want to be?
I hope the rest of your day is filled with light and laughter.